“We’ll call you when it comes in,” are very common words. They could reference a furniture order, pictures to be printed, or any earthly object. Today, they were in reference to my baby girl’s permanent grave marker. While this could have been a very hard day, I am overwhelmed with joy at the work God is doing in my heart. I was thankful to be there to be able to do something for my baby girl. I long for opportunities to do things for her. A sweet friend of mine recently talked about tenderly pulling weeds around her babies’ markers who are in heaven. While there is part that is still so raw and heart wrenching about not being able to change their diapers, comb their hair, hold their hands as they learn to walk…when we grieving mamas are able to do things for our little ones–anything at all for them–it is so what our hearts need and we are filled with so much peace in doing so it’s indescribable. I loved so very much to proudly state her insciption, Proverbs 31:25: “She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.” I chose that verse for Madelyn to have in her room before she was born. Only God knew how true those words were and how they were perfectly fitting for her. She never knew, and will never know fear. She has more strength and dignity than any of us living on earth, and I am more than certain she is laughing constantly. Oh how I can’t wait to hear that laugh. Thank you, Lord, for your beautiful word. Thank you for giving it to us, so that we can proclaim it as I was able to today. And I proclaim all of it. From the highest mountain. One day I will proclaim it with my baby girl by my side. During my time left on earth, I will proclaim that promise loudest of all.
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