Today I would like to share a truth God has revealed to me that is so refreshing it allows me to move through this life with a freedom that I never had before: my children aren’t mine. They are God’s. Yes, He has given them to me to enjoy while I live on this earth, and the promise of eternity with them. And I am so grateful that He has given me the joy of motherhood while here on this earth, a gift that many ache for and one I don’t take for granted, especially now. But what does it mean to give my children fully to God? It means I don’t worry about the future, their future. Do they have days left on earth? Months? Years? That’s not up to me. It’s not mine to know. So I don’t worry. Please hear my heart. God is good. SO good. He doesn’t cause bad things to happen. What sin means for evil, God means for good. If you have been watching my journey and think “I could never,” what God longs for you to say is “I wouldn’t want to, but I could with you. Because YOU are my ultimate beloved. YOU are what I want and need, above all else.” Bad things happen, sweet friends. Children get sick. Babies die. We live in a hard, dark world. And it’s so important to remember, as a dear friend once said to me, that no one is exempt from tragedy. Even though we lost Madelyn, that doesn’t mean we won’t face any more hard. I am not guaranteed to have my boys, my husband, with me for the rest of my life. I am not–WE are not–guaranteed anything. So today, as much as my heart still aches, I am free. Free of worry, free of planning too much, free of fear. Because a very hard thing has happened, and He has sustained us. So today, if you think of my story and look at your children, your spouse, your growing belly, and fear enters your heart, pray. Pray very hard. Pray that God would lift that fear, and replace it with a heart that fully trusts Him. Because if something did happen, that heart that God is holding will be what sustains you. So today, I am thankful for all the snuggles, bubble baths, fence climbing, hose spraying moments that I get to enjoy while I have my sweet boys. And I will laugh without fear of the future. Because #madelyngrace and God taught me how. #madelynchangedme