My sweet Caleb feels the same way. Thanksgiving night we went on a date to see The Star (super cute movie, by the way). On the way home, he told me the most precious melt your heart story that speaks so much about all that is going on in his little head and heart. He said, “mama, I want to turn into a squirrel. Then I can find the right branches and jump from branch to branch up to heaven. I can sneak up on Jesus (I know, right? Precious!!) and get Madelyn and bring her back down to earth. Then I would want to turn back into myself so I could play with her.”
We talk about Madelyn all the time. Caleb says he misses her and wishes she were here. You see, he spent 9 months excited about meeting her too. He kissed my belly non-stop, and was constantly asking to “blow raspberries to Madelyn.” Children understand and know so much more than we realize. And it’s been hard on them too. But what I do know is that my boys will be forever changed too. They will have an outlook and perspective on life filled with peace and wisdom beyond their years. They will forever wish to be squirrels and hop up to her, just as I will forever wish I could reach up and touch her once more. But they will also love Jesus more. And in loving Jesus more, so much more will they love others. And if Matt and I can raise them with that much love in their hearts, we have done our job
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