I met a friend for coffee, and felt better for a time.

But I still miss her.

I went to another doctor’s appointment. I’ve been to so many now that it’s starting to get easier.

But I still miss her.

I took a deep breath and actually went to the store because we were out of diapers. I made it in and out without crying.

But I still miss her.

I planted some flowers, and they seemed to brighten up our whole yard.

But I still miss her.

I ate a picnic lunch with my sweet boys. I love them so very much and I love being their mommy.

But I still miss her.

I ordered special Easter flowers for her grave, and felt so good to be able to do something for her.

But I still miss her.

I ordered a picture of her and placed it in a locket. It is the most precious thing to me that I own.

But I still miss her.

I took care of our dog, our cat, our two boys, our house, and before I knew it another day had passed.

But I still miss her.

I told my husband how much I love him.  I’m so thankful how this has opened my eyes and heart and enabled me to love more than I ever realized I could.

But I still miss her.

I think about her and smile because I know how happy and at peace she is now.

But I still miss her.

Days have almost turned into a month. Soon, months will turn into years. There will be a time when I can look back and realize I made it through my life without her.

But there will never be a moment that I don’t miss her.