This is one of the last pictures I took while Madelyn was still alive in my belly. I remember this day so well. The following day was my last day at work, and I was looking forward to needed rest as we waited on our little one to arrive. There’s nothing that could have prepared me for the days that followed. If you would have told me what was about to happen, I would have run in fear. I would give anything to go back to this day. To have my little girl here with me, to feel her move, alive and well. But when all you have are memories, you hold onto them with all you have. While it pains me to see this picture, to go back to a time before the ache I have endured, I am holding onto it with my whole heart. For I have learned there is joy to be found in pain. There are smiles to be found in tears. There is hope to be found in what has been lost. So today I hope. Until heaven.
“For the lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; ‘he will lead them to springs of living water.’ ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.’
~Revelation 7:17
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